Saturday, April 29, 2006
HAPPY 3rd BIRTHDAY HANSLY!!I LOVE YOU!
<3
that way i loved you. 8:40 PM
Where'd you go?
I miss you so.
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone .
She said somedays I feel like shit .
Somedays I wanna quit and just be normal for a bit
I don't understand why you have to always be gone
I get along but your trips always feel so long
And I find myself trying to stay by the phone
'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone
But I feel like an idiot, working my day around a call
And when I pick up I don't have much to say, so
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debatin
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
You know, the place you used to live
Used to barbeque with burgers and ribs
Used to have a little party every halloween
with candy by the pile but now
you only stop by every once in a while
Shit
I find myself just filling my time
With anything to keep the thought of you from my mind
I'm doing fine and I'm plannin' to keep it that way
You can call me if you find that you have something to say
And I'll tell you
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, at times debating
Telling you that I've had it with you and your career
Me and the rest of the family here singing
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
I want you to know its a little fucked up that
I'm stuck here waiting, no longer debatin'
Tired of sittin and hatin' and making these excuses
For why you're not around, and feeling sorta useless
It seems that one thing has been true all along
You don't really know what you've got till its gone
I guess I've had it with you and your career
When you come back I won't be here and you can sing it
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone
Please Come back home
lets reminiscene this together.
i love you.
that way i loved you. 12:02 AM
Friday, April 28, 2006
today's friday,meaning a school week just ended.
weekends are here,
long one this week.
monday's a public holiday.
a week just passed,
closer to the day when i get my freedom.
and my fcuking ____ wouldn't threaten to send me to the ___ ,
nor ____ me.
for the fact of the matter,
it wouldn't be their choice anymore.
so my dearest fcuking ____ ,
just wait and see.
the old tanya whom's taught in school,
"oh children you must love your ____ and your ____ ." ,
would be gone.
and all you people can do is reminiscene.
anyway, school was great.
had my english paper,
which was mega difficult compared to last year's paper.
the questions were so tricky,
and sihui got tricked.
lunched with karen, rachel anne and anissa after school.
met jerm after that.
went to buy the toothpaste which cost nineteen bucks each.
so friggin ex.
rawrr.
shopped abit.
bought my new novel.
=D
"goonight nobody"
i hoped it'll be a good book.
no short messages.
no short notes.
its just me,
and you.
that way i loved you. 11:47 PM
Thursday, April 27, 2006
i think i've a very weird family.it's very unstable but yea.
living with it.
i do what i like,
and i like what i do.
nothing changes that.
and i slept without air-con last night.
it died on me.
>:(
school's like a normal routine to me.
maths was retarded.
there was like this professor whom came to observe our lesson,
but apparently noone cares.
everybody was falling asleep.
i think people like to call me weird nick names,
eg: geisha, nu xia.
went to jerm's place after school.
suppose to study for my mid terms,
but ended up reading my novel.
and its only left with 20 pages!
)):
meaning, new novel soon.
baby, ______ ___ .
figure that out baby.
mwarks.
that way i loved you. 11:40 PM
Wednesday, April 26, 2006
apparently,me and _____ feels the same way about certain stuff.
it comes without you knowing,
sets you thinking, makes you sad,
and before you know it,
its gone.
and after some time it comes again.
its like this routine thing?
shrugs.
school today was like a drama scene.
those high school drama sort of thing?
teachers screaming, students not even bothered.
nobody gives a damn?
all teachers hates three saint paul.
we all know it.
((:
my current novel's highly demanded by everybody.
its like about girls getting laid,
self implicated injuries.
never mind about that.
on the more serious note,
my mid terms first paper is in one day's time?
its on friday, english paper.
meaning: i've to start mugging.
its so last minute, but
i suppose it helps.
somehow.
lunched with gwen and karen.
steamboat's back,
and gwen's really happy.
i want starburst.
)):
my starburst flew back to australia with robin.
hahahas.
but baby promise to buy me one.
=D
i miss you.
<3
that way i loved you. 10:39 PM
Tuesday, April 25, 2006
days seem to be passing super slowly,i think i'm the only one feeling it.
this is just one sided.
its jus me,
never mind.
that way i loved you. 11:02 PM
I LOVE MY AILIN KEA!
thanks hunneh,
for being there for me.
i feel really terrible,
but you made me smile!
by assuring me and making me feel more worthy.
and jus ignore _____ ok,
he's like sucha loser.
hahas.
that way i loved you. 10:45 PM
heard stuff about ____ ,
which was quite mean i thought.
but i've like totally nothing against her.
so yea.
shall just listen to it and forget all about it.
sch was fine.
was feeling really groggy in the morning,
was literally dragging myself to school.
i hate school as much as i hate _____ .
but of course more.
oh wells,
shrugs.
i've alot to update hunneh.
i miss dating with her.
met baby after sch.
finally bought a new novel and a new file!
=D
"bitch goddess notebook"
ok the book's like morally wrong but yea.
quite cool though.
and baby bought new slippers,
cuz his slippers broke.
and thats a blessing in disguise!
went over to granny's.
had dinner.
yummmmmmmmmy!
<3
loves loves loves!
that way i loved you. 10:24 PM
I LOVE MY AILIN KEA!
thanks hunneh,
for being there for me.
i feel really terrible,
but you made me smile!
=D by bitching bout _____ .
and jus ignore him ok,
he's like sucha loser.
hahas.
that way i loved you. 10:45 AM
Monday, April 24, 2006
is getting over someone's past so difficult?maybe its not,
but maybe its just me.
i hate this feeling,
i wanna get over it.
its so disturbing.
its causing disrupt to my sleep.
waking up every two hrs sure is tiring.
talking about cations and anions.
never mind.
being positive ain't just by throwing one negative thoughts away.
if only things were that easy.
i would be a very happy person by now.
that way i loved you. 11:40 PM
was texting gwen before i slp last night.
and we both feel the same way about ____.
not being mean but yes.
gwen forgot to bring the victoria's secrets magazine today.
i'm so sad.
i wanna see adriana lima!
she's like super ultra hot.
=D
i think delvinia phee has this something.
i dunno what.
but somehow i'll slp during her lessons,
or i'll get bad migraines.
without fail.
shrugs.
bought lunch for baby today,
went over to his place after sch.
subway's good,
but i'm craving for pepper lunch.
nigel came back after awhile.
i was like teasin him about him cooking rice.
hahas. he's damn funny.
my baby cant make do with his current slippers.
he needs new slippers.
or he'll fall soon.
i'm 100% sure.
)):
baby, jus buy birks ok?
and thats final!
tsk.
that way i loved you. 11:05 PM
Sunday, April 23, 2006
apparently, i think i'm a person with loads of random thoughts creeping into my mind.ok i just burst my blood clot on my toe.
and that hurts alot.
okayy as i was saying, random thoughts.
this was what happened when i was bathing.
i though of the list of things i want and i need to do.
i think i shall list them down.
List of things to do.
1. shopping for my baby.
- he needs a pair of footwear. (his slippers got stolen yesterday, i wanna get him birks)
- he needs more clothes. (polo tees are perfect)
- he needs more bottoms. (maybe another pair of jeans)
- he needs a wallet. (apparently all his cash and cards are all over the place)
2. shopping for myself.
- i need more dresses. (from anywhere)
- i need more boxers. (where else can i get girl boxers from other then topshop)
- i wanna get that dollhouse bottom from queen's couture. (cost a bomb, shall consider)
- more tops. (i'm wearing a repeatition of clothes)
- another pair of birks. (the heidi klum edition)
3. i wanna bring my granny and hansly out more often. (they're are the ppl i love most, other then my baby.)
4. spend more time with my baby (to cover up all the time missed while he was working.)
5. visit hollywood secrets to get my brows done. (they're in horrible condition now)
6. do my manicure and pedicure. (my nails are dying)
7. a new digicam. (my n70 is not helping)
8. a trip to japan with my baby. (that was really a very random thought, but both of us wanna visit japan tgt.)
9. have gym dates with my baby and hunneh. (i need to lose weight, i'm goin out of shape)
10. mug more my mid terms. (i dont think i wanna get expelled, so i've no choice but to do this)
yes. i've list them down.
not all my thoughts.
but yea.
jus all those.
that way i loved you. 11:13 PM
tanya loves the zoo.
((:
went to the zoo today.
with baby, hansly and my granny!
hahas.
great day.
i pity baby, cuz he had to pull me and hansly on the wagon.
hahas.
the children's playpool was super entertaining.
hahahahas!
watching all the kids fall and running around.
super funny.
=D
i think the new austrailian outback is damn cool.
the kangaroos come up close and personal.
hahas.
okay that was so random but yes.
everybody should visit the zoo.
((:
i wanna visit the zoo again when the new rainforest opens!
and thats in june.
ppl are very resourceful these days.
okayy. that was a very random thought.
btw i wanna get motorola v3i.
i dont want a 3g phone anymore.
and only baby knows why.
i'm missing him alot.
if only i could visit while he's working.
but apparently, its not allowed.
i'm so sad.
honey, we had a great day today,
and i love you to bits.
lets visit the zoo again in june.
mwarks!
that way i loved you. 9:34 PM
Saturday, April 22, 2006
oh no.this sucks.
i think i'm currently suffering from a hang over.
having headaches.
i so need my baby here now.
but he's working.
)):
that way i loved you. 3:32 PM
Friday, April 21, 2006
stc's bazarre was definitely a successful one for my class.sold malt candy and some fish game thing.
hahas.
all i did was collect money.
=D
there were not enough fishes at first.
tskk. haha.
met baby afta sch.
went ps.
had my lunch/dinner.
walked around.
went to granny's.
i slept, he played with hansly.
i went home.
went to de mezzanine with my mother, aunty celia and kane.
had dinner. super nice pls.
i think kane thinks i'm very mah fan.
hahas.
went to d balcony afta that.
drank alot.
with kane.
had magarita lime, magarite mango, zombie, a shot of test tube baby and a shot or orgasm.
okayys, yes. its called orgasm.
shrugs.
its vanilla and milk.
and de toilet in there's unisex.
hahas.
and there's a jaccuzi pool in there.
wanted to go indochine.
but it was lyke one alr.
so we gave it a miss.
and kane is currently in my hse.
baby i miss you terribly.
i wan you here.
mwarks.
i'm so sad.
)):
that way i loved you. 2:35 AM
Thursday, April 20, 2006
hey baby, i'm very worried about you.do take care of yourself ok.
dont want anything to happen to you.
i love you.
that way i loved you. 10:56 PM
i think ppl're interested in my life recently.
so that shows me ppl cares you know.
anyway thank you to ppl whom read my blog and tagged.
whether de tag is nice or not,
you tagged.
that shows ppl are concern about my life.
trying to improve my english and everything.
thank you.
but about me being ugly, i cant help it.
i'm born lyke that. ((:
and i think ah lian lang is not lyke that.
should go see wad exactly is ah lian lang.
and abt me being retained and everything,
hahas. ppl even know i'm retained.
that shows that ppl have been checking my profile out.
wow.
ok enough abt all those.
sch's okay today.
i wan mdm lim back.
we all miss her.
and relieve tchrs are boring and horrible.
shrugs.
hmmms. syf afta sch was great.
new songs.
FERLAI!!! sway sway sway.
hahas.
baby waited for me afta sch.
had dinner at harbour.
and horrible stuff happened.
shrugs.
i hate my ______.
yes i really do.
hey honey.
dont be so bothered by spammers.
they care about me. thats why.
but anyway, i love you for supporting me.
and i love you for everything.!
=D
that way i loved you. 9:52 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
i hate today.cuz i had lyke had super bad cramps.
)):
was dying larr.
couldn't even walk afta recess,
and ferlai was super sweet to piggy-back me up third floor.
hahahas.
i love ferlai!
nomore rifle range for maths.
means nomore air-con.
)): i need air-con.
cuz its a condusive environment and tanya can study betta.
yes yes everybody believes me.
((:
went harbour with gwen, tia and elaine afta sch.
had subway for lunch.
den me and gwen decided to eat somemore.
so went yoshi.
and i bought doughnuts from breadtalk.
i have lyke sudden craving for dougnuts since yesterdae?
i love doughnuts.
larrrrrrr.
i wan baby to buy doughnuts for me.
hahahas.
anyway, i miss my baby so much.
)):
thanks for sending me to sch today dear.
heehee. its was sweet.
loves loves. <3
that way i loved you. 11:10 PM
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
baby sent me to school today,heehee. that sweetie.
but was late. hahas.
everything's de same.
eh so boring.
TSK.
met baby jerm afta sch.
went to granny's.
ate ben and jerry's.
hahas. fossil fuel is super nice!
there's lyke small dino chocolate chunks inside.
hahahahas. so cute pls.
had dinner.
went to bugis afta that with baby.
shopped.
went home.
i'm lyke super tired now.
but i still wanna call jermmmmy!
heehee.
honey, i'm so sorry bout yesterdae.
neva will i say that again.
i really love you. and
i know we'll last.
mwarks!!!!
that way i loved you. 12:07 AM
Monday, April 17, 2006
sch was okayye.prettaye much de same.
boring life i have,
yes yes i know.
lols. hmmms.
went to ailin's with ravinder.
had magee mee for lunch.
hahhahas!
slacked. den ravinder went to leon's,
and met jerm at de bus-stop.
towned.
ate AGAIN at marche.
hahaha.
den went to granny's.
boring day.
nth much.
shrugs.
i love my honey.
sorry for wad happened dear.
mwarks.
that way i loved you. 10:04 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
woke up early.waited for my jerm baby.
finally came afta 15 mins.
heehee. i miss my baby so much much much.
went shang.
and my new pumps were giving me all sorts of blisters.
)):
so painful pls.
was complaining lyke crap to my baby and thong.
finally went to watson's afta service and got my blisters plaster!
=D
it was de saviour of my day,
and it was 9.65.
so ex, but at de very least i could walk properly afta that.
heh. thumbs up!
watched eight below.
so nice larr de show!
WATCH IT PPL!
de show's really good.
its damn touching,
and de huskies are so prettaye.
its really good la de show.
went to granny's.
baby had dinner at granny's place with me.
and de big boy and small boy was goin nuts again.
=D
i love my baby baby.
heehee.
dear, you betta rest well before meeting me tmr alrytes.
i love you loads!
YESTERDAY.
towned with baby and hansly.
brought him out.
hehe. ppl thot he was our son.
and ravinder thinks jerm makes a good daddy.
hahas.
shopped for my pumps.
and finally found a suitable pair at charles and keith.
that way i loved you. 10:17 PM
Friday, April 14, 2006
(on de way to west coast park.)
met jerm today.
towned.
had sushi for lunch.
wanted to watch keeping mum but,
neva mind.
shall not elaborate.
heh.
shopped. i din buy anything.
jerm bought two prettaye shirts!
hahas. i chose them ok. =D
den went home.
brought hansly down to west coast park.
haha so funny.
it was lyke a last min decision.?
and i bet ppl thot he was our son.
wth?!
lol. retarded pls.
hmmms. it was damn fun pls.
=D
and jerm was taking care of him all de way.
hahaha!
den went over to granny;s.
watched tv.
jerm sent me home.
darling, i had loads of fun today.
thank you so much.
other den de small argument we had,
everything was perfect!
heehee.
i love you sugar!
mwarks. <3
that way i loved you. 10:49 PM
Thursday, April 13, 2006
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY CHUA SIHUI!I LOVE YOU! =D
sch was fine.
got abandoned by that birthday girl and fer.
both ponned.
but i still have my beloved gwen with me!
=D
f&n was so frigging stressful today.
was rushing my work lyke crazy.
met jerm outside my sch bus-stop.
he waited there for nearly 30 mins.
hehe.
towned.
neoprints!! yayys. so prettaye pur lease.
heh heh.
shopped at topshop.
=D bought boxers and a top.
hahas.
dear, i really love you,
and i'm sorry to be so temperamental recently.
quite rawrr about stuff.
sorry dear.
that way i loved you. 7:58 AM
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
gwen abandoned me in sch today.)):
i'm so sad la pls.
hmphfs!
hahas.
sch was pretty de same.
had some refugee talk.
and maths was ok.
changed seats.
sitting beside fer now.
front row. tskk.
met jerm afta sch.
wanted to watch keeping mum.
but over de tyme alr.
so walked arnd.
and i din buy de dollhouse pants i wan,
i'm lyke depressing now.
cuz i really lyke it larr.
)):
cut my hair at platform.
and its quite i dunno wad now.
tskk.
shrugs.
baby.
thank you for everything.
de waitings and sorts.
loves!
that way i loved you. 6:41 AM
Tuesday, April 11, 2006
GWENDOLYN WEEi love you so much!
thanks for being there!
mwarks!
sch was fine.
pe was great, cuz we did that syf dance.
hahas.
f&n practical exam's on dis coming thurs.
and i'm have no clue how to cook macaroni and cheese.
this chinese dj came to sch during chinese?
shrugs.
she's funny.
hahas. and she speaks chinese so fast that none of us heard her.
-.-
met jerm afta sch.
suppose to watch ice age 2 peacefully,
but shat happened.
and gwen came to my rescue.
ate at galilee.
yummy.
den went heeren,
bought my dollhouse pants.
wheeee.
so happy.
but ailin and ravinder thinks its not nice.
)):
jeremy tan,
shrugs.
that way i loved you. 10:19 PM
Monday, April 10, 2006
i'm currently very pissed.not really pissed but not feeling too good.
i wonder why ppl hide identites.
and turn arnd and bitch.
ya i'm naughty so wad?
i dont hide my real identity, do i?
harhar.
sch was fine.
had super bad migraine during chem.
sch's getting boring.
and thats a bad sign.
meaning: i wont concentrate.
lunched at clementi with gwen, krystal, wanru and sihui.
ate lyke some glutton.
had porride, chwee kuey, char kuey teow, mee pok and de oyster omelette.
gosh, so yummy pls!
=D
den went to millenia walk with wanru, sihui and krystal.
bought stuff from candy empire!
starburst, wonka bar and ooze toobz.
hahahas.
wanru has very bad caramel obsession.
hahaha.
den went royce.
bought de champagne one for jerm.
but i ate alr.
hahahas!
so sinful. )):
den went off.
and i got lost looking for de correct 106 bus-stop. )):
finally found it and went to granny's safely.
hahas.
man, i have an ed hardy obsession!
i wan more dresses from ed hardy and i wan dat three quarts from queen's couture!
i wan junk food tee.
gosh, my list is neva ending and i wan so many things.
but i've got no cash.
sighs.
honey,
i wanna take de carousel ride with you.
and freeze at that moment.
that way i loved you. 10:36 PM
Sunday, April 09, 2006
ok i didn't blog yesterday.
cuz i was at my granny's.
towned.
encountered an annoying twig during breakfast.
went to cinemax chamber and watched perfect catch.
hahas.
and all jerm did was slp.
he left me all alone for one and a half hr.
)):
den went shopping.
and i tell you.
i cant shop,
i'll go bankrupt.
i'm alr flat broke.
due to two days of shopping.
ok i shall list them out now.
-de killers which killed me for de rest of de mth. )):
1. papillio footwear. 119
2. mambo tube dress. 69.90
3. ed hardy mini dress. 144.50
4. nike rugby jersey. (for jerm) 79.5
5. accessories. 23.90 + 12.90
total : 449.70
so. tanya's offcially broke.
thank you very much.
ok anyway afta shopping,
we continued walking arnd.
util some ppl spoiled my mood.
shrugs.
den went home.
happy third mth honey!
darling, thanks for spending de day with me.
really appreciate it alot.
and i'm shure we had fun!
=D
that way i loved you. 12:02 AM
Friday, April 07, 2006
sports day's damn fun.went for mac breakfast.
and by jus watching cheerleading, i got tanned.
and i have this very ugly tann at my watch.
)):
and we were all so sweaty!!
urgh.
went to jerm's place.
slacked.
went for lunch/dinner.
hahas. i dunno what.
den went home.
)):
i miss him.
babyyyyy, love love love you!
((:
that way i loved you. 5:07 AM
Thursday, April 06, 2006
sch was okay.somehow it passed really fast.
was rushing de f&n coursework lyke mad.
printing and printing, writing and writing.
de cream of spinach soup jiaping cook was damn good pls.
yummy!
towned with krystal.
den keith came.
followed by wayne.
slacked, and watched some video.
which was damn funny pls.
but so poorthing larr. those girls.
)):
honey honey, ((:
i'm so sorry bout last night kayys baby.
i love you and i dont wanna leave you.
mwarkks.
that way i loved you. 6:46 AM
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
i miss sunday school.)):
okayys.
hmmms. sch was boring.
somehow nothing really significant struck me?
jus that i'm rushing for my f&n coursework lyke shat?
rawrr.
should have updated my work regulary.
)):
i'm regreting lyke fcuk now.
tsk. rawrr.
i wan my baby jerm now now now.
met jerm afta sch.
ate and slacked.
played at toys'r'us.
omg this aunty cheat my feelings larr.
)):
i love my baby jerm truck loads.
mwarks.
that way i loved you. 6:59 AM
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
i'm missing my baby so much.
)):
hurry hurry come back from m'sia okayys.
and call me.
and i haven met you for de past few days.
so sad pur lease.
i wanna go out with you!!
cant wait for tmr.
loves loves.
mwarks. <3
i'm having super bad muscle ache,
where? my tummy!
rawrr. so painful ok.
)):
chinese was damn slack.
hahas i lyke.
i'm dreading chem.
i dunno how delvinia phee will react towards us.
tts bad.
i think she hates us now.
shrugs.
lunched in sch.
accompanied rene to coronation.
collect cheerleading suit.
poor girl.
her fever went up again.
den went to granny's.
that way i loved you. 6:40 AM
Monday, April 03, 2006
i love my hunneh, darling, bestest so so so much.today's date was short.
but we had fun! ryte kea?
hahas. more dates and more fun to go.
thanks for being there whenever i need you.
and i'll try my best to always be there for you alrytes!?
i love you loads.
mwarks.
sch was fine.
took new tyme table.
that sucked.
was craving for subway during sch hours.
so asked kea.
chem was horrible.
shrugs.
everyone was complaining and feeling really restless.
weather was a killer, and that made everything worse.
everyone was cursing and swearing.
but oh wells, wads new.
hahas.
and fer was sweating so much.
tsk tsk.
subwayed with kea.
took neos.
den she had tuition.
so went off.
i'm de luckiest girl in de world.
cuz i have de bestest boyfriend.
mwarks.
that way i loved you. 5:50 AM
Saturday, April 01, 2006
went for funeral in de morning.and i cant go to church cuz of some shat.
damn fcuking angry.
to granny's.
towned with granny, de small boy (hansly) and jerm.
haha so cute pls.
they really cheered me up.
loves!
had lunch. and i think i ate
went alot.
went to taka's children department.
gosh, hansly is so retarded.
hahas. and he loves jerm now.
cuz jerm carries him.
one big boy and one small boy.
hahas.
had dinner at billy bombers.
yummmmy.
den went home.
stayed over at granny's.
baby, thanks for being there for me.
and i really love you.
hope you're feeling betta.
mwarks.
that way i loved you. 7:55 AM
went for funeral in de morning.
and i cant go to church cuz of some shat.
damn fcuking angry.
went to granny's.
towned with granny, de small boy (hansly) and jerm.
haha so cute pls.
they really cheered me up.
loves!
had lunch. and i think i ate alot.
went to taka's children department.
gosh, hansly is so retarded.
hahas. and he loves jerm now.
cuz jerm carries him.
one big boy and one small boy.
hahas.
had dinner at billy bombers.
yummmmy.
den went home.
stayed over at granny's.
baby, thanks for being there for me.
and i really love you.
hope you're feeling betta.
mwarks.
that way i loved you. 7:55 AM