Tuesday, December 06, 2005

8.36pm. bad move. bad phonecall. shouldn't have done it. bad move REALLY BAD ONE. i lied. i lied. I LIED. to make you feel betta. bahhs.
should i call again at 11? i dunno. you asked me if i am calling. i hestitated. cuz, i dont wanna repeat wad happened. i dont wan you to be confused. yea.
darling ask me to call. i dunno if i should. i'm confused.

HELLO. its 5.56pm. and i'm bored. blahs. got woken up at lyke wad? 4. and i slept at 7+. talking to darling. actually thats 9 hrs of slp. but NO not enough. bleaghs. alrytes.

YOU you YOU. i miss you. i texted you. knowing that there'll no replies. ok. but its been 2 days. and i dunno. i feel weird. lost and everything.
i think i can neva have you. i wanna move on. i wanna try. but something's holding me back. and thats de happy tymes we had. no maybe not. and de lies. no feelings for her. well maybe when you're here. but its ok. its de past. i know. you've found your happiness. i can see i can tell. i'll find mine. real soon. i'll try.

darling: darling darling. reassured i'll always be here for you no matter wad yes? i know you're lost. we're both lost. but we'll be strong yes? i'll be here for you and you know it okayys. and i know you'll be there for me too. and yes. DE LIES WE'RE BOTH HEARD. how true they are. blahs. ok i'll call in soon okayys. love you darlingg!

that way i loved you. 1:55 AM